Sleep...

I need it. The babe, bless her heart is not sleeping well...at night or for her naps. Well one day she will nap well and the next she will sleep for 30 min. at a time which leads to five or so naps because she can't stay awake for too long. I don't know of it's a growth spurt, if shes more aware that she is Alone, if she is overtired, etc..or just a combination of it all. We've been trying several things and so far nothing is working...sleep...not getting it at night and not getting it during the day. Sleep.....

I feel like my mothering has been lacking the past few days because of it. When I play wit her its not as enthusiastic because my energy is well shot. She would not take a bottle tonight and instead of working at it until she would take the bottle (vie had to do this before) I gave in and nursed her because I just didn't have the energy to fight her on it. What can I say...I'm exhausted. And my mood shows it on occasion, sorry cute family of mine.

Nobody said this mother thing would be easy. That I would be tired and overwhelmed. All of it is true. And yet...I am still filled with this unquenchable joy.

 Joy when I look over at my princess as she just stares at me while I make dinner or clean the kitchen. 
 Joy when she smiles or splashes in her bathtub.  Absolute joy as she nuzzles her head into my body as she snuggles up to go to bed(even if it's only for a short time). 
joy as I watch my handsome husband be the most adorable daddy.
 Yes, its hard, and yes every.single.minute. Is completely worth it.

Here is to dreaming of sleep in the future.....